The thing about not being employed is that you are forced to create a routine for yourself outside of the pressures of needing to be somewhere. I find it a real test of discipline. Will you follow-through on your to-dos?
Positive Disintegration through feeling cringy on Tik Tok
Since becoming unemployed, I’ve committed to creative growth by challenging myself to create daily. Whether it’s on here or Tik Tok. I am sharing something every day. Not matter how uncomfortable or cringy I feel. Today is hair wash day. Unfortunately, the hot water in our building decided to vanish, leaving us with cold water. I could have subjected myself to a cold-plunge-esq type of shower. But that did not sound fun at all. So I didn’t. Instead, I placed my 4 day old dirty hair in a slicked back…
Showing up.
Consistency. Consistency. even if you don’t feel like it. You show up.
What if?
What if we are better people in different places? What if those places are far away from our family? What if we would be the better, most creative version of ourselves if we moved?
I envy contentment.
I envy those who find contentment in their lives. I envy the ones who do not have a constant, nagging feeling to do “more”. I envy the ones who do not experience the cycles of existentialism. I envy the ones whose life contentment is achieved through simple things like shopping for a new dress, going on a trip, going to a restaurant, watching a good show on tv, etc. I envy the peace they must feel not overthinking and not feeling a responsibility to “make this world a better place”. …
Which shit sandwich are you willing to eat?
What is worse? The discomfort of having to create your own momentum to build a life crafted by what you define is fulfilling and successful. This means: daily actions that will bring you forward – whether it’s learning a new skill or pursuing a business idea – with no immediate results. Days can turn into weeks feeling like you are not going anywhere. OR The discomfort of being told what you should do, when you should do it by and where you need to do it, whilst…
“I love Money”
Today on a Marie Forleo podcast episode, Marie told the story of the time during her book tour where she proudly told the audience “I love money”. She mentioned how the audience went silent. Like crickets chirping type of silent. Most likely confused. Most likely unsure of how to respond. Because, wait, what? Someone is admitting to loving money? Loving money feels so wrong. It feels like if we love money, we must be like the characters in real life and on tv who get rich on the back of…
Maybe there is no greater reason?
“Maybe it’s not meant to be and that is why it hasn’t happened yet!” a line I told my friend over video call tonight. We were discussing potential partners, potential families, potential futures. Potentials, that are not yet realities. Potentials that get questioned like “is this for me?” or “what if x never happens?”. Questions that we follow up with self-created reasons, often grounded on either spirituality or philosophy. Reasons and stories that we tell ourselves to feel better. But, what if there is no greater reason? What if everything…