Since becoming unemployed, I’ve committed to creative growth by challenging myself to create daily.
Whether it’s on here or Tik Tok.
I am sharing something every day.
Not matter how uncomfortable or cringy I feel.
Today is hair wash day. Unfortunately, the hot water in our building decided to vanish, leaving us with cold water.
I could have subjected myself to a cold-plunge-esq type of shower. But that did not sound fun at all.
So I didn’t.
Instead, I placed my 4 day old dirty hair in a slicked back bun and filmed a “POV dirty hair” Tik Tok video.
As I was editing my 25 second clip to some trendy song, using the word POV, I wondered: Who have I become???
I rejected using POV for so long because it felt cringy for me to use it.
I rejected making videos with trendy songs because I felt too old for that.
Yes. Too old!
That is another realisation I’ve had making Tik Tok videos.
I feel deep discomfort in letting my inner child express herself.
Since retuning from Mexico I feel that some of my beliefs are disintegrating.
Positively disintegrating.
And why share all of this publicly?
Because I’ve often felt misunderstood.
I’m so thankful to all the strangers who shared their stories, art, videos that gave me comfort – that helped me grow.
And I guess this is me hoping to gift that forward.
Happy Friday and Make Each Day Count.