Not sure there is a point, but maybe that is the point? Why do we do what we do? Like sign up for a Substack account without really understanding how it works. It’s like getting in a rental car and driving off without fully understanding what all the buttons do around the steering wheel. True story. It happened to me. I only realized how dangerous this jump for excitement to hit the road can be once my friend couldn’t figure out how to turn on the fog lights. Or when…
10 Years Later (Part II): Back to My Life, Back to My Swiss People
Writing part I of my 10 Years Later reflections was so easy. Talking about my experience of leaving Utah felt like a natural flow. Trying to encompass everything of actually living in Switzerland? Not so easy. I’ve literally spent the last 4 days trying to write part II and 14 revisions later, I realised it’s just not going to happen. I thought typing away my feelings would help clear my thoughts, but it only showed me how overfilled the last 10 years really were and how I still haven’t processed…
10 Years Later (Part I): When I Woke Up for the Last Time Calling Utah Home
It was the morning of April 26th, 2009 when I woke up for the last time calling Springville, Utah my home. I have flashes of frantic last minute suitcase cramming. Wondering if I had packed all the necessary items to start my new life. Trying to pack up your life in three suitcases is no easy feat especially when you have no idea what that new life will look like. I remember my mom insisting she cut the ends of my hair because “how could I arrive to meet my…
ENFP Starting a Business: Pamela is back with a Fair Trade T-shirt Brand
Guess who’s back? Back again? Pamela’s back. Tell a friend. *Cue in Eminem rapping* Hi there. It’s been awhile since I have blogged. But you know, life got really really busy and really overwhelming. I was finishing up a full time working contract and trying to get www.teeshie.com going. Teeshie is my t-shirt brand. The brand is 100% organic white t-shirts that are Fair Wear certified. They are designed by me and I literally put all of my creative heart into them. I am really, really, really excited about this.…
Daily Thought: A Funeral, Time and Freedom
I have spent the last 48 hours in a small town in Croatia. My husband’s grandmother passed away and we attended her funeral on Tuesday. It was a bitter sweet moment because she was the last parent to go for my father-in-law. The grandfather passed away almost 4 years ago and in a way, we have been waiting for this moment for awhile. It must be hard to continue on with life when your partner leaves you after decades of sharing each day together. In my mind she is now…
Daily Thought: Why Did I Quit Blogging?
Why oh why did I quit blogging? Last night I found my old blog posts from 2010-2011 on a hard disk that my husband backed up. I totally forgot I had started with blogging so early on. I didn’t write many posts, but I wrote enough to capture one of the most life changing eras of my time. It was the time where we live in London in a hostel. Broke. Struggling to survive. And growing up in the best way possible. I was 20 when I started blogging and…
Security is a funny thing.
I am at a crossroads in my life at the moment. I need to decide between security and my own beliefs. The choice is simple: Do I look for a stable job or do I go ALL IN on my projects and myself? It’s a funny position to be in because there are so many mixed opinions and beliefs about what security means to people. Today I have had two conversations about the topic and through those conversations I have come to realise a few points: The only time we…
I want to go to sleep. Is that so bad?
It’s 10:30pm, it’s raining and the only thing that sounds good is my bed. I’m so tired that all I want to do is sleep. These feelings are conflicting. I got home from work at 8pm, cleaned a little bit, prepared dinner and ate with my husband. It was 9:45pm when we finished eating and afterwards it was time to clean. I just want to go to sleep. Work was not stressful, yet my mind is tired. There is a lot I still have not finished today such as my…